Here I am as I sat on the phone and was talking to my mother’s friend. We talk about my mother as always because I called and asked about if she remembered how my mother made them. I am so thankful to Allah she did remember because my memory was so sketchy about the ingredients of the fish cakes of was of the star of this recipe, canned mackerel. It is cheep and easy to make and filling. Since my late mother made this for me because it is my favorite.
This is an unwritten recipe of my late mother until today. Today it is going to get posted for the whole world to see. I am sure Mutti would not mind at all and so this is my favorite German dish from an honest German mother. My mother who stuck by my side and stared the bullies down that picked on me, who Mrs. Rosario thought is a meany took it the wrong way thinking my mother didn’t want me to have friends. I told her my mother was doing the same thing she would do over her own kids if her kids were being bullied.
She would have her kid’s backs like my mother would have mine and that is that.
The sad thing about it still my mother and I was not on speaking terms when I got in to my 20’s because of the lies my father told on her and it really pissed me off and because of his lies still is the reason why I am not talking to my father.
My oldest daughter is at this very moment is having a c section to have another baby and because of my father and his lies and she echos these poisonous lies made me so angry that I stopped talking to her. She even tries to distort my family’s history when I know where and wen my family came here to the United States from Germany.
My dad allowed some horrible person come in and break up his marriage to my mother and abuse me and later my oldest daughter. I was really in a bad situation when I was growing up and it took me until I was nearly 30 to straighten things out.
Now I know if my mother was still here she would very much disapprove of my oldest daughter’s actions. I was 22 when I lost her 6 months behind my paternal grandfather.
My mother was stalked and she had a brain tumor because of this bloody bastard! I swear I will never forgive him, ever!!!!!!!!
She had a stroke and then her heart stopped because she gave up.
Her death certificate says aspiration, brain tumor, pneumonia.
I wish she was still alive to see what I have done with my life so far. I was a cigarette smoker in high school and it was on and off for 10 years I had stopped for good. I am an asthmatic and allergic to tobacco and wasn’t supposed to smoke.
I flushed my cigarettes down the loo and never smoked again. I was 26 when I quit for good and I am 52 now. I quit cold turkey and never went back and never will. I smell cigarettes and I get sick. My mother’s friend said my mother would be proud of me.
I had to write toxic people off from my own immediate family for my own good. My mother has a lot of those toxic people on her side of her so called family too. So not always blood is thicker then water. At times it is your own blood family that does you the worst. I am not alone in this. Even Yousef (AS) had brothers that were jealous of him and sold him in to slavery. His name is Joseph in the bible and Prophet Mohamed (SAWS) (Peace be upon him) had an uncle that was just an evil man that gave our Prophet (SAWS) a hard time and wanted to kill him and he was also an orphan.
At the age of 27 when I took my shahaddah. I know what I got myself in to and I had more haters then ever. Believe me on this, I really do not care at all.
My mother’s friend kept tabs on me and later my girls even after my mother passed away,. When I made these last night I could feel my mother’s presence I swear. I was have to expecting her to come and throw me out of my kitchen. If she was here she would do it and she is entitled.
I made them with 1 half of a large onion. Any color onion can be used or you can use a shallot in its place. 1 bullion cube, or 3 dashes of seasoned salt, or 2 pinches of vegtea seasoning can be used. Add 4 dashes of lemon pepper, 1 pinch of black pepper corns coarsely ground in mortar and pestle or spice grinder, 1 half of green bell pepper, 1 handful of all purpose unbleached flour, 2 handfuls of cornmeal, 2 pinches of baking powder, 2 drops of either maggi or knorr aroma, 1 egg and the star of the show is 1 can of canned mackerel. Do not throw the water because you are going to need it. Take a skillet cast iron or otherwise, rinse it out to make sure it is clean and put it on the stove on high and wait till the water dries out add 2 cooking spoons full of vegetable oil and turn the burner down to medium.
Mix all of the dried ingredients first and chop the half onion and green bell pepper finely then add it to the flour mixture. Then add the egg, the canned mackerel and the water it came in in to the dry ingredients and mix in to a dough and make sure it is well blended. Add 3 tbs of water if the dough is too dry then it would be a soft dough and you do not want batter consistency. It should be a soft workable dough.
Wet your hands and break off a piece of the soft dough and form a patty and place in the hot skillet with oil. Let it cook until they are golden and the rawness goes away by flipping every minute until it is done. Just count to 60 to kill time.
Enjoy this with potato salad and a nice green salad would work too. Also only mackerel is used for this recipe. My mother didn’t use any other fish for this recipe.
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