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Sri Lankan Tinned Fish Curry

I have an update on my mental health sort of speak. My dad’s passing has me seeking professional help and I mean it seriously. I have been snapping at everyone left and right and of course I have a right in the world to be pissed off the lack of dignity my dad had recieved in his final days. Let me be clear when I say this to you that I am a former caregiver and I have been trained to spot elder abuse. I am a child abuse survivor for those that does not know and went through the gambit of abuse myself and survived it all and I have my mind still intact Allhumduallah.

Actually the types of abuses are self abuse where substance abuse and other self harming comes in to play. There are also sexual, financial physical, psychological, emotional and verbal. I have used the verbal types to retaliate at the abuses my abusers did to me to make them know I am not taking their shit that I will not be intimidated, bullied, munipulated, scapegoated or gaslit. Recently it was my damned landlord that jumped on this bandwagon and I let her know I am not taking her shit and I do not have a kick me please sign on my back.

The red flag she through my way was saying I am her favorite tenant and then when she was changing the pipes here in the building that she inconvenienced us for a week. The workers she hired took longer then they were suposed to and it was in the middle of winter. My dad was in ICU at the time and I already had more then a full plate and I did not have lunch that day because I could not cook and she is fully aware I am a diabetic and am supposed to eat small meals during the day to keep my sugar levels from falling. I let her know about this. Then she was being very condinsending and I did not appriciate it.

She is not much older then me at all we are the same age practically and by the way her sons are as old as my daughters. She even had a gall to tell me that she owns me and I said in your dreams bitch no one owns me. I told her only Allah owns me and I made her leave then she gaslit me to my husband by calling him at work by saying I pushed her. By the way I did not push her at all. If I did she would not been able to get up and walk. I am not a violent person unless I have to defend myself if my life is on the line. I let her know she was playing games with my health because I had no water to cook my food when her jacklegs was fixing the pipes. I told her to stop stressing me out and leave me the fuck alone. I told her also I am not her damned child and I let her know my own father did not tell me what to do nor did he raise his voice at me and niether did my mother and told her to STFU and GTFO then slammed my door when she came over here to talk more shit. I let it know no one talks to me any old way and gets away with it and they will be told off one way or another.

Sorry about the profanity but she really had me triggered. My blood sugar levels goes up when I am stressed out and this has happened to me a lot especially after my father passed away. As far as my landlord she has to learn how to not go around gaslighting and scapegoating people. I know we are also in Ramadan now and I am sorry I did not say Ramadan Mubarak sooner but seriously I have not been myself and I mean seriously.

Now for writing out this recipe that involves by making Curry Powder just before you make this yummy dish that is also very simple. Add 1/4 cup of olive oil to a pot on high heat, 2 curry leaves, 1 onion or shallot to cook until brown, 1 clove of garlic, the contents of mortar and pestle which is the curry powder and use it again to grind 1 broken piece of cinnamon stick, 1 pinch each of coriander seeds, black peppercorns, grind in to a coarse powder and add to the masla mix in the pot.

Add 1 pinch each of paprika, red chili powder and turmeric and stir. Add 1 tomato chopped in to tiny pieces and stir until it is mushy. From here you can add 1 can of fish of any type like tuna, sardines, mackerel, salmon, sprats or even crabmeat. You may omit the tomato if the fish already is in tomato sauce and it doesn’t matter if the fish is in oil or brine and empty it in the pot undrained. Add 1 can of coconut milk and cook for 5 minutes and you are done. Also just before you add the tomato it is advised that you reduce the heat to keep this from burning. Enjoy this over a bed of basmati rice. I suggest also drinking imli sherbat while you are eating this too.

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