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Tomato Onion Chutney

I wanted to come on line last night and write this post but I was so damned mad that I could not think straight. The reason for this was about one crazy ass chick I have known since we were both in high school and was supposedly been my friend and however she has been treating me and other people like shit for a very long time and boom I went off on her. I called her out on her bullshit and I talked to her family about this. However our mothers were best friends and used to hang out together right after church.

Besides when I write something down that I am finding it theraputic. Now her dad is like a father figure to me and her mom always had my back and has been their for me since I was growing up and was a part of my support system after my mom passed away. Our moms both went to the Salvation Army church on the west side of Chicago and it was by Henry Horner and Rockwell Gardens housing projects. I feel bad this old man is on his back in the hospital and he has been this way for quite a while now. Now these old people has always told me that I should get a job as an interperter that I could make great money.

I was talking to my mom’s friend today by saying I remember these discussions and then boom I have been working as an election judge for the City of Chicago providing Urdu language support and she told me: “there you go, go make that money.” Also the endless discusions I have about my mom, dad, kids, books, music and especially food. My food blog gets talked about too because food is definatly my passion. I love to put on makeup too but there are other beauty bloggers and influencers that I talk to about the different trends etc….

I love my mom’s friend dearly and I tell her she is stuck in the stoneage as I call it, lol. I tell her hey the internet is an amazing place to store digital imagery. As for this crazy ass she devil thinking that she can give people all sorts of hell, she does not care at all. Someone is going to really hurt her and hurt her badly and it is not going to be me. She had hurt my feelings badly because she never gave a damn about me. I told her family I know when to chalk it up as a loss and walk the fuck away from this bullshit. By the way no one blames me because everyone else is tired of her and her antics too.

She never once told me she was sorry to hear about my mother’s passing when I lost her back in 1985 behind my paternal grandpa. She did not tell me she was sorry for hearing that he passed away or even when my dad passed away 3 months ago. She can absolutly kiss my God damned ass and I am dead serious. Also I am in therapy dealing with my issues. This fucking bitch who i have a beef with needs to see a fucking shrink and I am dead serious and I do not give a fucking damn on who reads this entry. I am pissed off and hurt and I have a right to be. If she herself reads this and I really don’t give two shits and totally out of fucks to give what she thinks or not. She just better not say shit else to me anymore period.

She better not even say how much she loved my mom because again I am going off. I am telling the whole world she is an absolute POS that does not want to work on her own damned problems and needs to be put in a damned straight jacket. Oh also I told her mom she is absolutly dead to me. I am not talking to her ever again. Also I can’t stand fake and saditty ass people and also sometimey comes across to me about the type of person or sub human she is.

Now with enough said for at least for now and thanks for letting me vent because I have a lot on my mind. For this chutney you will need a mini processor and add in there and it has to be raw this time 2 curry leaves. 1 tomato, 1 onion or shallot, 1 green chili and pulse until it becomes a puree.

Now in a wok or cast iron skillet add 1 oz of either corn or canola oil while it is on high heat. Add 1 pinch each of hing, chana ki dal and let it turn brown, 1 pinch each of mustard seeds, pink salt turmeric and stir. Add 1 dry round red or long green chili or 1 Kashmiri chili crumbled. Stir and add the mixture from the mini processor and let it cook down a little and turn off the heat cover and let cool down and then put in a container then place in the refridgerator to let cool and eat it with your favorite meal.

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