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Adzuki Beans With Bottle Gourd

Before I dive in and write out this post I want to express the truth lately about my very state of mind. I was on the phone with my therapist almost a week ago telling her what had happened recently. First is the bs that I had told y’all about my father passing away about the bs that I had went through and then there was some more high drama after my mom’s best friend lost her hubbby.

Losing those two gentlemen in my life is very difficult and then one idiot acting like a tramp did not make me feel much better either. I got in to it just before my mom’s friend’s husband passed on and by the way this man who passed away was this the chick I got in to it with, he was her dad. I knew them all since I was in high school and my mother did not bring me out of the group homes where I have went through lot of abuse there to be abused anywhere else especially by this idiot. Obviously she treats other people like garbage too so it is not just me.

She clowned at her dad’s viewing and by the way this old man does not deserve this and this is not a way to honor this lovely old man at all. She thinks she can try to compete against me and there is no way in hell she can and everyone in her family also can’t stand her because of her actions. I even told her mom she is dead to me. I told her when my mom passed away she said nothing and also for my dad she did not give me condolences about my dad’s death either.

Then I went to a baby shower and I was invited by her sister who I get along with just fine. Matter of fact I get along with her other family members just fine for the record it is this miss thing I do not get along with at all. While at the baby shower she got disrespectful with me and got a nerve to get in my husband’s face to call him “BABY.” I really wanted to knock her on her bum and I would have but again I was not stooping to her level.

My mom’s friend and her husband taught both of us to be ladies. I do not know what the hell happened to her. I am being very serious. Obviously miss thing’s aunties know I had told her dumb ass off on the net and I let her have it. For one I hate siddity trifling ass folks. Siddity is a term for someone who is stuck up and stuck on themselves, completely self absorbed. I think she is a damned narcissist. She has to be because people who are narcissistic act like this.

When I left the venue of the baby shower this trifling heifer had a nerve to try to again pick a fight with me. When I got home my blood sugar level was about 202 or 203. I can not take this damned stress. I told her family members I do get along with including her mom please kindly do not invite me to another function. I swear I would never even go to her damned wake or funeral if she died before me or anyone else. I told her mom she is dead to me completely. I have no more use for Pookie AKA Yolanda O’connor. I am naming and shaming this heifer right here in my blog.

Besides this stupid thott needs to stay out of the faces of married men. So married ladies do not let this vamp in to your husband’s faces because she will try to steal him. She loves to sleep with married men too. I am fixing her wagon once and for all of this skeezer who thinks she can try to out do me. That WENCH better understand my husband does not like her either. Also she treated me like dirt for a very long time too and even one time trolled my post on Facebook. I told her she never has been my friend at all. Lets be blunt here, she is a frienemy that is all. A frienemy is someone who pretends to be a friend when they are really your enemy. Also I know she is jealous of me. Seriously IDGAF.

Bad enough my oldest daughter acts like this too but for someone that is going to be 60 in November needs to get her damned act together. It is a shame for someone moving back in with her parents and has a job at the post office. It goes to show she does not have her act together at all whatsoever. My birthday is next month btw and I am older then she and more sencible. My husband and I have been together for nearly 33 years. He is not going nowhere.

Sorry if you read my rantings but I feel better when I write things down like this when I am pissed off. It is a way for me to let off steam. Also this is why I am in therapy. Also the other night I nearly lost my cart in the store. I thought someone stole it. Then boom something else happened and I got my cart then I had another embarrasing misshap I care not to explain. I will just leave it at that and that is that. Mr. Riaz is going to check it out for me in the morning and that is all I have to say at least for now.

Now for the recipe you will need 1 kadoo also known as bottle goard peeled, cut in half, desseded, cut in to strips and then cut those strips in to pieces in order to dice them after you wash it off and place it in a bowl to set aside.

Put 1 cup of adzuki beans in another bowl and fill it up with water covering the beans. Add 1 pinch of baking soda and let sit for 1 hour or 2 to let soak. Rinse the beans several times and add more water again covering the beans and set aside.

In the instant pot or other type of muti functional cooker on sautè function for 7 minutes add 1/4 cup of vegetable oil, 3 tbs of either coconut or mustard oil, 1 pinch each of hing, mustard seeds, kalounji, shai zeera meaning carawy seeds in Urdu language, cumin seeds, fennel seeds, fenugreek seeds, 2 curry leaves and let seeds splutter.

Grind in mortar and pestle 1 pinch of black peppercorns. Add this to the rest of the masla along with 1 pinch each of pink salt, kasoori methi, dessicated coconut, red chili powder, turmeric powder, 1 tiny piece of imli which means tamarind In Urdu, 1 onion or shallot, 1 small piece of ginger, 4 cloves of garlic, 1 green chili washed and chopped, 1 tomato washed and chopped. Let the tomato cook down until it gets mushy.

Add the kadoo and stir it in to the masala mixture then add the beans and stir more. Add 1 more quart or 1 liter of water and stir again. In case the cooker does not shut off then press cancel and place the pressure cooker lid on top of the cooker and make sure the condensation collector is in place. You do not want a wet counter. Make sure the pressure cooker lid is set to sealing. Select pressure cook on high for 20 minutes. When the cooker shuts off after time is up then place steam diverter over steam vent and press quick release and when pressure is gone after the pin drops, carefully open and check the beans and kadoo to see if they are soft. If not repeat for another 20 minutes.

Serve this with either millet, brown basmati rice or even whole grain naan. Also may be consumed with yogurt.

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